steady state

I just got home from a night out with climbing friends. A few things happened this week that kind of stirred stuff up for me. Some good, some bad. Writing in a blog is hard, most of the events in my life that I want to discuss have to do with people. So it has to be private and yet I don't want to be when I type it. I want to say someone's name. Then say how much I am crazy about them or can't stand them. At the same time that is not fair for the person to find that out through a blog and not from my mouth. So my solution is to be as ambiguous as possible and just leave the world guessing.

I am dreading a certain phone call that has to happen in the next week. I know it is something I have to do, but for some reason I am still in denial. I just keep saying I will make the call later. I really don't want to do it. :( I need to (wo)man up and face things a little more than I do sometimes.

All in all, I had a pretty good week. I haven't been home a single second but to sleep, it is crazy. That is how I like it. My roommate may have thought I signed up to be home once in awhile, but it ain't happening lately that is fo sho.

Oh I am tired. I don't have the mental energy to type about anything good for you to read. I want to cuddle right now. I don't have anyone to cuddle with and I miss that! That is the one thing I hate about being single. I am a very physically affectionate person and I am happiest when I can have that.

It was good to see all my BCC friends again. A bunch of them are making the committment to teach this course section. I really admire that. It would probably be a good thing for me to do. I didn't make every weekend available in the next few months though and this time the course runs clear through June!! Gosh they are such "good people," although it is weird to be hanging out with them in Seattle instead of out in the mountains somewhere or in a random pub on the way home to Seattle from a climb. I liked every single person on my team and was even fortunate to make friends that I have kept on other teams. They are the best quality people I now have as friends... Chris is pretty quality too. :) Mountaineering is a good place to make dependable friends.

Okay I am sleepy girl and do not have anything interesting that isn't super private for the internet.